the kitchen counter. 







Commentary.



Part one revolves around it's namesake, and the time I spent, late at night in the kitchen with my close family, as this is where we'd always congregate after family events. The lack of structure really helps it seem like it's from a child's point of view, which was my intention. I wanted to use the structure to show a child's constant, rushing thoughts, and how they're all vying for attention in their head. I also wanted it to be overly positive and happy, so that Kitchen Counter pt. 2 would be jarring in it's difference in mood.



Kitchen Counter pt. 2 is supposed to define greatly the differences in emotions (or lack thereof) while experiencing depression for the first time. The structure is simplified to show the thoughts calming down, not from maturing, but from simply not having enough energy to differentiate them. It also shows the absence of the family, something that is incredibly important. However, the poem still focuses on the kitchen counter instead of this absence. 

I attempted to have a monotonous tone with a hint of negativity at time with Kitchen Counter pt. 3. I wanted to have the first stanza be similar to the first stanza in Kitchen Counter pt. 1, but instead of it being my family, drunk in the kitchen and laughing, it would be me by myself, getting drunk and laughing at the person I am. Whereas in the first instalment of this poem I commented on how comfortable the counter was, I now instead comment on how uncomfortable it is. The structure of this poem was supposed to be very simplistic. 

Kitchen Counter pt. 4 is the penultimate segment of this poem, and it has a very different tone to the other's in the series. I had originally planned to have the lines involving the kitchen counter in the middle of page again to show their importance, but after some feedback, I decided to instead place the lines written about my family in the center, to symbolise that what I really needed was in fact my family, and that I had been projecting their love and good memories onto this inanimate object, which I briefly comment on in the poem itself. I felt it was significant to start every segment with 'Kitchen Counter' to show how my mind and my feelings changed while experiencing different stages of depression, and to set the tone of the whole segment.








                     
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